Nancy's coming with us to the Philippines on Dec. I'm still not sure about it but that's what grand told me this morning. I really don't know what to think bec I know Nancy will be all up in my business when she goes home with me in the Philippines. And I'll probly have to come back soon too bec she won't be staying there for long ): I really don't know what to think right now, it makes me sad. I really wanna have my own decisions for my life but I can't do that since I still lean on them. I just wish I have my own job so I can afford my own place and my baby's stuff. I just wish I don't need their help anymore ):

I told Joseph that we couldn't plan anything yet bec Nancy will just ruin everything.. I know she's not gonna let me sleep over at Joseph's house ): I just wish they'd let me, Lucas's Joseph's son too. He has the rights to be with him.. more than they do. I wish they can understand that.. sometimes my family are too selfish. They don't think about others, they just think about their benefits. It sucks to deal with all of these esp when I'm so stress about having a new baby. I know its all my fault and I'm too young for this, but I still need help, you know. I can't do this on my own. God please help me. Help my family to understand. Guide me to the right path, God. Thank you.