I'm so depressed. I miss Joseph so much ): I wanna go home already and stay with him. Why I can't I just stay in the Philippines with him? That'd make everything so much easier for me and Lucas. I hate it when my family decides for me ): I know its better for me to stay here but there's a lot of ways and I know they can help me they just don't want to ): I wanna stay there for a long time, it's not like my baby can't get his monthly check up there.. Everything's the same. And Joseph told me he'll pay for everything when I'm there. I just don't know what to tell him anymore. I miss him and my family's ruining our relationship.